Hurting but okay

I just want you guys to know that I'm doing okay at the moment, but I am still hurting now and then.  My grandmother had always been sick and her heart was never working properly as it should have. There was nothing more that I could've done, but...I am so glad that I was there with her when nobody else was.  On the night before she died we had breakfast for dinner. It was made up of sausage, egg, and grits which was the best meal I ever had with her. And I do remember hugging her one last time before she died. On the following morning after she died though, my aunt was making breakfast...and it was the same breakfast that my grandma and I had for dinner...eating that meal was so painful and sorrowful for me that I couldn't hold back my tears. Everyone in my family kept telling me "thank God you were there." Or "At least Nina wasn't alone. She had you there to keep her company til the end." I'm especially hearing thank yous  from my mom cause I know she was hurting the most and she still is. I do have a regret though. Every morning when I woke I would always see her on the chair. She would wink at me and say good morning and I would always smile and hug and say good morning back. We would always sit at the table and eat breakfast lunch and dinner and then do our own thing afterwards,but I would always maked sure to check up on her once in a while. And every time I went to bed, i made sure that I hugged and said good night and that I loved her. On the night before she died, I did hug her, but I didn't get a chance to say that I loved her for I was gonna do that before I went to bed and now I will not get that chance for a while.
But I do not regret the days that I spent with her when nobody else could. Even if they're only little moments, those little moments of each and everyday that I spent with her meant everything to me and I will forever cherish them. And I hope she knows that I love and will always miss her.

So anyways, i just want you guys to know thast I am okay, but I'm still hurting now and then. I'll try to get some drawing and/or comics for you guys soon..just be patient, okay?